Redha

Wake up with wrong side of bed perhaps.

Ya Allah...
Redhakanlah hati aku...

Finally the day have come.. the time when i really need to let go... let go for the things that I've been waiting for... For almost more than three years.. waiting for something that was very uncertain and unsure... For almost three years try to move on.. yet I did faced too much challenges.. being left out.. being hurt.. not being missed out...what have i done by hurting others too.. Surprisingly, this one really hard to change.. really hard to let go... Feeling towards someone i really care about..

Today i found out two things... 

• The person whom I've been waiting for has found someone new.. His mother's girl.. Perhaps it is the best for him and me.. He did text to update me.. and yes i supposed i have to deal with it.. Alhamdulillah.. Aku ikhlaskan hati untuk ini.. Jodoh itu rahsia Allah.. Aku redha dia bukan jodohku.. Mungkin Allah telah tulis yang lebih baik untukku..

• The person whom i really trust as brother, friend actually kept secret from me.. Which is i not surprised.. but still i am sad for that... He also kept this secret.. His lovers... 

Ya Allah... Hati aku sangat rapuh... Ikhlaskanlah hati aku untuk lepaskan dia... Redhakanlah hati aku terima semua ini... Jadikan aku kuat untuk semuanya.. Sesungguhnya setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya..